The inspiration for this piece came to me at a time when death had struck. Grief was violent, and the pain of abandonment set in. Why? How? I waited, suspended between material and spiritual. Visitation was all that could comfort me now.
“what is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him?” Psalm 8:4 KJVAAE
Such a powerful question, brimming with raw emotion, desperation, and resignation. Or is it so sad? How does one read the question as if coming from a place of innocence, naïveté, and the lack of conditioned thinking? Today I have one answer, but yesterday I had another one. And the day before that was different still. Each day I ponder, but find nothing, or everything. Each day hence I feel, and learn. Tomorrow is new again. The ever changing messages pour in from this one mystery—what is man. Some knowings I have captured, and others still escape words.
Day One The voice of the Lord spoke to me. I heard, and then felt a great rapture. Safety, joy, compassion, and satisfaction were the guiding emotions of the moment. I heard Love:
“You are Beauty. I formed you from the red clay of the Earth….beauty for ashes. This is who you are, son of man. ‘to appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called Trees of righteousness, The planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.’ Isaiah 61:3 KJVAAE
“You are Wonder. And you are Fearful. This is also how I made you—all experience is freely given you, including darkness and light, pleasure and pain. ‘I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.’ Psalm 139:14 KJVAAE
“I am mindful of you, as we share the One Mind—the great Noosphere. My mind is your mind. ‘For who hath known the mind of the Lord, that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ.’ 1 Corinthians 2:16 KJVAAE
“I trust you, for you are faithful, and good. You care for me when I visit, and you await my return when I am not close by. That is what man is. “His Lord said unto him, Well done, thou good and faithful servant: thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy Lord.” Matthew 25:21 KJVAAE
“You call out to me, and I hear you. Can you not feel my presence? I rush to you, My visit will soothe you, and restore you. ‘who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.’ 2 Corinthians 1:4 KJVAAE
“I visit you, and abide in you. I Am your subatomic structure, the genome of which I have crafted you. Within the womb of your cells, within the nucleotides, you will find Jacob’s Ladder. This is your access point to Me. As you interact and interface with the double helix, you will understand the mystery of separation and then new creation. I am here. It is in the pattern of cell division and reconstruction. Semi-conservative replication is the great mystery of matter animated by spirit. Come to the library with me.
“You are weary. Rest now, sleep, and I will visit you in your dreams. I await you and will take you anyplace, whether known or imagined. If you let Me, I will show you things you could not even have imagined. ‘And the angel of God spake unto me in a dream, saying, Jacob: and I said, Here am I.’ Genesis 31:11 KJVAAE
“You are strong. ‘The name of the Lord is a strong tower: the righteous runneth into it, and is safe.’ Proverbs 18:10 KJVAAE
“You are Me. “But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.’” 2 Corinthians 3:18 KJVAAE
Day Two Something is different. I am different. The feeling is emptiness. Life is gone awry. What’s happening? Was yesterday merely imagination? Now I conclude anew:
I have sinned against God. “for all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;”. Romans 3:23 KJVAAE
My thoughts are unholy.
God has banished me.
God had visited me, and then He departed. As visits are, there is always an end. When will He return? Will I ever see Him again?
Day and night I pray. “Pray without ceasing.” 1 Thessalonians 5:17 KJVAAE
At night, I grieve in longing for our union. “I am weary with my groaning; all the night make I my bed to swim; I water my couch with my tears.” Psalm 6:6 KJVAAE
By day, I seek comfort, and hold on to hope that I have not been forsaken. “I will rise now, and go about the city in the streets, and in the broad ways I will seek him whom my soul loveth: I sought him, but I found him not.” Song of Solomon 3:2 KJVAAE
Enemies and plagues surround me. My thoughts are fearsome, frantic, chaotic. God has forgotten me, and will never return to me.
Day Three I must hope. Faith is the only way. I wait, and watch. I meditate on all scripture, seeking answers. Then, once again, I feel the face of God turning toward me. I sense the visit is nigh. In joy, I anticipate. Yet still I hear the words of David, and I feel his doubt and his sorrow. This knowing moves me, and my soul travels through the illusion of time and space.
With great compassion I hold the psalmist. His face is between my hands and, with my forehead pressed to his, I remind him of his worth.
Gently, I whisper that he is made in the image and likeness of God.
As He did for the enslaved in Egypt, God will hear his cry. This I promise him. My heart breaks for all mankind that wonders where God is.
And, on their behalf, I shout from the mountainside that man carries the very spirit of the Creator, renewed with every inspiration. “So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.” Genesis 1:27 KJVAAE
What will tomorrow bring? Perhaps there is no tomorrow, nor is there is an end to this answer. Are we already together with Him? Who are we? Will He arrive? How long will He stay? Is He already here? How will I know? Perhaps we are already home: “Now, therefore ye are no more strangers and foreigners, but fellow citizens with the saints, and of the household of God:” Ephesians 2:19 KJVAAE
With great love,
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