About

This website, like me, is constantly evolving and changing. It started out as my own study and interpretation of the Holy Bible, especially the King James version. I was raised Catholic and always believed that this book was written by those closest to God.

Over the years, I began to ask deeper questions. I began to notice what I felt like were contradictions and hypocrisies coming from church leaders. Their responses to me were always: “you just don’t understand it”.

Now, clarity became the goal and I was laser-focused on this very, very personal missive. But it went in a different direction than I had originally expected. As I carefully watched the actions, statements and policies of the Christian community, there was no deeper understanding for me.

As a critical thinker, I could not make sense of those weaponizing the Bible to validate misogyny, and the strict control over the lives of free people. The scare tactics that were used against people, like me, who questioned the meaning of Christian scripture, were suddenly abhorrent to me. Respectfully, I assert that this book, The Holy Bible, is not my book. It belongs to the people who will wield it as a tool of oppression and a justification of violence. It belongs to those hungry for wealth and status. The book suddenly seemed foreign to me. Now I regard this work as a literary masterpiece, and, in many parts, as a beautiful guidebook for a peaceful and loving community. But it also reads as a graphic novel, a history of bloody wars, supposedly demanded by a loving and all powerful Father, and an example of the devastation that men have caused women since the beginning of time. Genesis begins with the demonizing of the woman, Eve, and the rest of the writings do nothing to elevate those with wombs, to be recognized as equally valuable manifestations of the Creator.

As I research my own family lineage, I have learned that King James is possibly a direct grandfather of mine. I still have some work to do in order to confirm that theory, and I am in the company of probably millions of other descendants. But this is important for me, as I wish to have a conversation with him. I believe that even when a person has died, they are not really “gone”. Rather I believe the ancestors are still with us, just in another form. I want to reach him, to understand him, to ask questions and to acquire his insights. Perhaps it will disappoint me, or perhaps it will enrich me. I will let you know.

Today, the distortions of scripture to fit the narrative of our “leaders” sounds like lying. The condescending dismissal of those who seek to make sense of the writings sounds like gaslighting. And the expressed requirement that all Americans live by this scripture as law, with violations punishable by all sorts of painful and deadly methods sounds like terrorism. For me, the Bible has become a tool of manipulation. As I say “the Bible has become”, I muse that the Bible hasn’t changed, rather I have. A new perspective makes the information look different, but it is not. Moving forward I contemplated which segments I would take to heart, and which ones I would disregard But that did not feel right either.

Now, in my renewed purpose, I must disregard the work in it’s entirety, as being the centerpiece of my life. I feared that I would feel disoriented and directionless. I do not. I worried that my life would become fraught with tragedy and misfortune, and all that I had worked for would disappear. It did not. The more I exert my self-freedom to seek the meaning of Spirit and life, the more interesting, successful, and exciting my life has become. Personally, my life was not better when I was in a submissive role–rather it was quite difficult and marginally successful. And, there are still experiences of loss for my family and me, as death and other losses are parts of a human existence. No one that I have met has escaped grief. These happenings are not punishments for sinful behaviour, rather they are normal for everyone on the planet. And I refuse to believe that a devastating loss is “God’s will”. And there isn’t a single church leader or biblical interpretation “expert” that can make sense of that reasoning. With tongue in cheek I wonder that perhaps I simply don’t understand. Then I remember that there is no way to understand the statement any more than there is a way to understand the event. Perhaps it just is.

Now, I must move forward with new questions, exploring a new place, and discovering creation in a vastly different way. So far, it is a beautiful journey. And from this place I have been empowered to weather the storms of life, to remain materially successful, and to lead a family to stability and strength– accomplishments that would have been impossible if I had remained centered on a single, human-written literary work as my gospel. Instead, I write a new scripture, a modern gospel, and a fresh guidebook for myself and anyone who would benefit from it. It is the work of a free person, divinely existing in a miraculous world. Join me in this adventure.

For those who still apply the writings in the Holy Bible as true and absolute, I respect and honor your path. It is not my path..