This page is for the names of those we have lost to substance use disorder, or to those who have ended their own lives because of this disease. All the names on this page will be written into my upcoming book, The Bottom, the Gift of Desperation. In the comments, please write the names of those who have gone, and they will all be written into the book.
To learn more about the book, The Bottom, the Gift of Desperation, go to the homepage and click Books by Robin P. Currie on the menu bar. The book is a biography about Markanthony Silvia and his long battle with substance use disorder.
I wrote this poem for all of the loved ones who have gone. They will never be forgotten.
The world is different without you. There is an empty space that will never be filled.
My heart is different since you are gone. Inside it is a wound which will never heal.
I cry out, I pray, I search–but I will never find you. Your pain is over, mine is not.
I pray, I mourn, and I wait. One day I will see you again.
This world held pain and sorrow for you. You body was weak, your spirit was crushed. All that remained was the love that I had for you. But still you left.
I would do anything, go anywhere, for one last moment with you. I will wait forever, until you return. For now I know that you went to The Bottom.
At The Bottom, did you find peace? Is there love, and light? Or are you alone and afraid?
My heart is broken. I, too, am at The Bottom. There is no peace. There is no love and light. I am alone and afraid.
In faith, I will be strong as I await the moment when you rise. Only then will I be whole again.